What is it like being awkwardly-weird and self conscious among people? Absorbing every iota of their feelings simply as they project? Wanting the earth beneath you to open up and swallow you whole when you do something laughable in public, worse yet, when it is people you know! Never getting a moments peace as you relieve all the embarrassing moments stuck and reeling in your brain.
Being highly sensitive in a world of many trials with capricious governments and bad leadership, living in seditious times having a level of perseverance and strong will to understand and process, such as the way a pandemic has changed the way we operate and how we think about our selves, our lives and those of other people.
Taking in all the daily news past the headlines and sympathizing with any cause, pondering over every horrifying or beautiful detail to stay conscious still yet being awake most of the night unable to leave the topics and find some rest. Not being able to ignore anxiety about coronavirus. At all.
Feeling everything deeply, taking the information around you and thinking about it carefully. Emotionally responding to everything one sees, wondering what it all means.
Work calls? Please make it a text, it can work and if we are to make it more furtive, a good email.
Overthinking? the old vice, that is me, my thoughts and I.
Easily overwhelmed! You feel so tired and very anxious especially in a pandemic. Always wondering if everything is okay, the pain of losing people to anything everyday. Even pleasant things like beautiful daily interactions would need a lot of energy to engage.
Just mentioning all this makes me cringe, Yikes!
Is there more Africans out there like this?