Pingu Za Maisha – Shackles of Life: Teller254
I am lost in a pool of passion;
Completely immersed in an ocean
filled with names of beautiful ladies, but, only one drowns my insecurities;
an indescribable feeling that sometimes confuses me, because her smile makes me feel like I’m one step into paradise, and her lips make me think like if I were Adam, she would be the forbidden fruit, but I would still taste it without even being lured.
The lady who makes you feel cured just from the way she treats you even though you were not really sick.
I have an addiction and she would be my medication.
The only one I would give full dedication and attention to make her feel at ease.
Pingu za Maisha
But it’s never that easy to tell her that she creates a tension around my heart when she walks in the room, I fall so hard for her without anyone hearing a sound.
Her eyes, a sea that I deeply see myself, fishing for pieces of love and my heart as the boat ready to carry it,
Her laugh paints a colour bluer than blue.
So next time i see her, I hope to get the courage to tell her that I’m racing in a stadium, and her heart is the touchline,
The price as joy and unloyalty is the line I’ll never cross,
When our hearts cross paths and our souls intertwine in a world of love, so pure that virgins will feel like they should up their game in it. A white that snow would compare to the dark
I saw my future in her eyes and in her voice, I heard heaven, hell, if she wanted a flower, I would buy her a greenhouse.
I mean the lady I walked down the aisle for made my heart race
So date nights, late nights, I mean even our late night calls made me feel her here. See this is love that runs deep in the roots of the soul,
So believe me when I say, adhabu ya kaburi naijua Mimi because she used to kill me with her looks. She made love to me with just her touch, her undressed was Eden on so many levels, she even made it seem as if wearing anything was a sin at that moment.
I could feel her love run through my neck veins. At the back of my head was nothing but Her Name, so someone please teach me how to love her enough
Because I just can’t tell how you wake up one day and your dream is just a nightmare.
I want to bleed out every single sense of her imagination,
So with this knife, I’ll cut off my fingers one by one, wait, that’s too quick a death. I want to feel it truly.
I can’t stand it.
Not today, not ever.
I’ve heard hearts scream louder than grenades, tears heavier than blood, seen hell in the eyes of someone I believed in, a heaviness in souls that weight machines could not measure, felt darkness in the middle of the day and a construction site of hatred in the mouths of people who swore to understand the ways of love but now can’t walk through that path.
I could pull strings in my guitar from key G to A to mayB C the grave of Emotional Dejection I led myself into because I suddenly didn’t understand why it felt hot when I stood out in the rain and hell, heavens know how much I need this Because the cold that this woman brought to my heart deserves more wrath than the hellfire is capable of giving.
So these are cries in a maternity, not tears of joy but of a death created by a child born of infidelity after a woman who Infront of God and I swore to leave all others for me then went ahead to share our matrimonial bed with Him.
To me, there was no other but to her, I guess I was just another.
So these flowers I had brought to the maternity room, I will save it for my grave for I’m already dead inside. Now my feelings are just rotting. I’m sorry God for breaking these vows but today I’ve decided Kuvunja hizi pingu za maisha
About the Author Teller254 aka Isaac Ng’ang’a
By the time he was completing his I.T degree at Jomo Kenyatta University of Agriculture and Technology, MC Teller was arguably one of the biggest names in the institution; hosting some of the most talked about events in campus.
Having performed alongside some of the game’s shot-callers – including Rabbit King Kaka, H_art The Band and Poet Teardrops – and at some of the biggest shows in the country – such as The Mseto Campus Tours – MC Teller is clearly not a new face; just an overlooked one. In this exclusive interview, the 22 year old soft-spoken sensation tells you just why you’ll be seeing more of him.
Read more about Teller254 aka Isaac Ng’ang’a on an interview here Magazine Reel